One of the crappy parts about being a parent...

is knowing my daughter is sick and not being able to make it better. I am watching her in the monitor and just wish I could make it better. She is back to sleep in her crib after our first real puking incident in the crib and I can't help but sit here and worry about her. She has her first fever and I can't give her any medicine to help since she had some before bed for her teething. I wait to see if she is going to get sick again since I am afraid I will not hear her and wake up. I want to take her temperature again to make sure I really did get an accurate reading. I want to cuddle her in the rocking chair but I know I am hot and I can't imagine that with her fever, cuddling with me will feel better than her crib since she is sleeping (although tossing and turning a lot). I want to make her feel better right now and I can't. :( I worry about what jammies to put her in since I know she is hot but I don't want her to get too cold. And for selfish reasons, I want it to be something easy to change her out of for the next round. I worry that her funny breathing while I was cuddling her is really a major issue and not just her being sleepy and trying to hold her paci in. I have been searching online for way too long and now have crazy thoughts in my head. I should just go to sleep so I am more rationale when I wake up later to do this all over again. I am thankful we spent the money on the monitor we got so I can lay here and watch her in her crib. Otherwise I am sure I would be laying on the floor in her room to make myself feel better. How are we going to handle any illness more serious than this? I just wish I could make her feel better so she could get some good sleep. :(